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Regarding arrogant assholes and existential crises. | August 19, 2016
[After vowing to get back into a weekly publishing schedule with this personal journal of mine this year, I have once again this summer lapsed into big periods of inactivity (although this time for the justifiable reason that my job...

Surprising news about the future of CCLaP. | April 29, 2016
Surprising news this week -- after doing my taxes, I realized that my arts center actually grossed $20,000 last year, not the $14,000 I was expecting. Today at my journal, what this means for the future of CCLaP, and what admittedly big changes need to take place for that to happen. Hint: it involves putting together a lot more money.

Next year should prove to be a very interesting one. | December 24, 2015
Big changes afoot around here -- I'm essentially putting CCLaP on deep freeze for the first half of 2016, so I can concentrate instead on my brand-new career as a computer programmer. Click through for more on why I'm doing so, and what projects will be coming up for me next year.

Regarding Imposter Syndrome, Learned Helplessness, and other new fun outcomes of a career change. | September 18, 2015
Today at my personal journal, an update on how my post-bootcamp tech job search is going, and thoughts on two conditions common to career changers like myself, Imposter Syndrome and Learned Helplessness.

Let me tell you about my grand outer-space adventures!!! | August 17, 2015
Well, okay, no, that's a lie; that's not why it's been two years since you last heard from me at my personal website. Click through for the much more mundane answer, a look at CCLaP's plans for 2016, and a check-in about my new career as a software developer.

Such a busy 2013, I never had a chance to post anything. | December 31, 2013
My first new entry in 14 months! Read an extra-long post about everything that happened to me in the event-filled 2013, and why it kept me too busy to write even a single update to this personal journal of mine. Dogs! Children! Random fast-food shootings! What more do you want?!

Short-term frustrations and the long-term view. Plus, sex and babies. | October 11, 2012
Today, a few thoughts on some short-term frustrations I've been having recently, and the importance of keeping the long-term view in mind during such times. Plus, at 43 I'm finally starting to have baby fever every so often; but first I need to find someone who can stand having sex with me. Sigh.

Regarding my freakout at the science-fiction convention. | September 2, 2012
I had a major emotional freakout and ensuing anxiety attack this weekend, after attending my first science-fiction convention in literally 25 years and having all these long-forgotten memories of high school come flooding back Vietnam-flashback style. Today, some thoughts on what happened. Plus: Hey, I'm broke! Take a gander at some of the things I'll be doing this fall to make more money.

The game of arts administration. | July 19, 2012
Today, some thoughts on my arts center finally being in the black, how running it often feels like playing a big game, how my time in Second Life in the mid-2000s led to this little theory of small business and gaming, and why I'm looking forward to one day wagging an elderly finger at all my long-dead enemies and bragging that I won.

Greetings from Onlinistan. | May 29, 2011
It's been happening again -- after long online sessions, I've been feeling like I've left Chicago and am now in a fictional city called "Onlinistan" that doesn't really exist, bringing up the slippery question of what exactly consciousness is and how we should define in an online age what "occupying" a space actually means. Plus: I've been attending live lit events again! THEY'VE BEEN TEDIOUS! Click through for more!

Regarding the tricky process of artists making good decisions. | March 20, 2011
My arts center's newest original book is out, which as usual has me thinking about the subjects of aging, arts administration, and the trickier and trickier question as you get older of whether or not you're doing the right thing with your life. Today, some musings on these issues.

Regarding eucatastrophes and Kevin Smith. | January 25, 2011
Today: The apocalypse is here -- JASON PETTUS NOW OWNS A CREDIT CARD. Click through for all the details, and why it reminds me of JRR Tolkien's concept of the "eucatastrophe," a suddenly great thing that happens to us for no rational reason. Plus: Did you know that Kevin Smith is now producing a new podcast episode every night of the week? Read what I think about it if you want.

The plan for 2011. | December 21, 2010
It's the end of the year, time for looking both backwards and forwards; and so here is my detailed month-by-month plan for what I'd like to do in 2011 with my arts organization, the Chicago Center for Literature and Photography, hopefully adding up by the end to four new books, four issues of a new magazine, four live events, and with luck CCLaP's first-ever four-figure annual profit.

Converting pipe dreams into actual dreams. | November 12, 2010
I've started a process this month that is destined to have some profound long-term effects -- I've started paying off all my old debt and getting my credit back in order, all of it hopefully culminating in securing my first physical space for my arts center in just another five to ten years from now. Today, lots more details regarding the process itself, and some thoughts on just what the term "justice" actually means.

What the electronica industry can teach us about the future of literature. | July 5, 2010
Today, some thoughts on what I've been noticing recently within the world of electronic musicians, and what it may teach us about the future of something as old-fashioned as literature, especially when it comes to digital books and the eventual fate of intellectual property in general.

Random notes. | June 13, 2010
Today, short thoughts on a variety of subjects, including: My arts center's first literary event was a big success; I'm finally bicycling again for the first time in almost a year; why I thank God Facebook wasn't around when I was in college; how it is that Google killed the SEO industry; and why the growing American criticism about Israel is actually the best thing that could've ever happened to Judaism.

The month of returns. | May 16, 2010
This month sees the return of two activities that used to be fun regular parts of my life -- not just bicycling for the first time since my accident last summer, but my very first live literary event in almost a decade. Today, some more thoughts regarding both.

He's alive! Barely. | March 28, 2010
My first update in nine months! Today, details on why that is, mostly because of a bad bicycle accident I was in last summer; and also some updates on what's been going on with me the last nine months, including my recent decision to try my hand for the first time at children's literature.

Here's what I'm doing this summer. Um, it's a lot. | April 12, 2009
Things still suck with money and dating, but at least I'm very productive these days; and that had me thinking recently about what I might take on as new challenges this summer, coming here to Chicago in just a few weeks finally. Today, my conclusions.

Introducing the "wikicloud" theory of amateur historical research. | February 8, 2009
Uh-oh; it's another entry just for nerds! Today in fact concerns a new research project I've taken on, to eventually present this summer through my arts center, wherein I read a thousand Wikipedia entries on the subject of the 19th Century then present them in 3D "mind-map" form, or in other words a "cloud" of information. Click through for a lot more on what I mean.

Another Saturday, another afternoon of global cultural inhalation. | January 25, 2009
Yesterday I found myself once again doing what I've done on numerous pleasurable Saturdays -- making my way through thousands of random photos and indie-rock songs and blog entries and podcast episodes from amateur artists around the world. Why? And why so pleasurable? Today, some thoughts on the subject.

It's here. It's finally here. | October 31, 2008
Good Christ Almighty, my arts center's first-ever original book is finally out, after a year of constant plans and constant delays. Today, all about it, what I think of it, and by the way why I will never accept one of those dirty corporate major-press book-editor jobs.

And yet even more on this little mini-space I've been having pipe dreams about. | September 2, 2008
Today, part 3 of my recent thoughts about this weird little commercial mini-space that recently up for rent in my neighborhood here in Chicago, and all the various cool book-oriented things I could do with such a space.

More on my fantasy theoretical bookseller/CCLaP shared commercial mini-space. | August 29, 2008
I'm having a particularly crappy year this year, so one of my only highlights these days are of the recurrent pleasant fantasies I keep having each time I pass this empty tiny commercial space in my neighborhood. Today, part 1 of more on what I would build there, and how I would sell the things found within.

Chicago at 14. | August 4, 2008
Well, whaddya know; today is my 14th anniversary of moving to Chicago, a date I celebrate every year as if it were a legitimate holiday. Today, more thoughts on how this year's celebrations are going, and how I feel this most recent year of my life went.

It's my birthday. I'm not exactly thrilled about it. | March 5, 2008
It's my 39th birthday today; and like most birthdays, it has me in a sober and contemplative mood, reflecting back on the last twelve months and the various things that have gone right and wrong. Click through to read about the conclusions I've made.

How to make money from nothing. Seriously. | June 20, 2007
Well, just a couple of weeks until the virtual photography gallery opens for my arts center, as will my first opportunity to generate revenue through CCLaP. Will it work? We'll see! Today, all the details on how I plan to do this, despite having not a penny to spend on upfront costs.

Here we go. Again. | May 31, 2007
Well, it's official, almost: Sometime in the next couple of days I will finally be re-activating my arts organization, the Chicago Center for Literature and Photography, now located at the new URL cclapcenter.com. Read all about it today. Plus: Bad news about my Second Life blog; why must Americans turn everything into a joyless exercise in consumerism?; and no, you're not imagining things, I really have been more of an asshole this spring than usual.

On being one of those annoying "your body is a temple" fucks. | May 4, 2007
I got a letter the other day from a reader, politely asking that I not turn into one of those smug "your body is a temple" assholes, now that I'm making all these changes to my lifestyle. Oh, don't worry, there's not much chance of that happening! Today, I explain why, and why I'm so fascinated by the human body these days anyway. Plus random notes!

Oh yeah, that's right, it takes time to recover from surgery. | April 23, 2007
Well, the good news is that I'm ready any day to re-activate my arts organization, the Chicago Center for Literature and Photography. The bad news -- I keep getting stopped by all this damn oral surgery I'm going through right, and the pesky fact that my body actually needs time to recover. How dare my body need time to recover from surgery!

Greetings from beyond the Aether. | March 15, 2007
Well, hi ho there, ladies and germs, and as always I apologize for going so long without updating this journal. (For those who don't know, by the way, I continue to update lots of other online stuff regularly, even though...

Random notes. | January 8, 2007
Today, a collection of notes that have been piling up in my Moleskine, including: thoughts on owning my first-ever iPod; I'm finally republishing my entire back catalog of books; a reader wants to know what I think of Jason Fortuny, so I tell him; and could 2007 finally be the year that my projects turn a profit?

Celebrating nine years of horseshit. | December 28, 2006
Wow, this week is the ninth anniversary of my website. Who would've thought such horseshit would stick around for so long? Today, some thoughts on it all, and a Christmas letter of sorts for those who are only sporadic readers.

More frustrations. Another new plan. Sigh. | September 8, 2006
Well, some frustrating news to report today; that the live-event program for my arts center has gotten officially shelved until next spring. Here, a few thoughts on bitterness, optimism, electronic publishing, and why I'm looking for invites to vampire balls.

It's open. My arts center is finally open. | June 24, 2006
Well, the day has finally arrived; after two years of plans and trash-talking, my new arts organization is ready to sink or swim on its own. Today, read all about it; and how even the best-laid plans still don't stop you from running to the bathroom with dry heaves at least once a day, when you're a new small-business owner.

Okay, so the real reason I'm scaling back this journal. | April 24, 2006
Okay, so my readers (brilliant as always) have been guessing more and more at why I so suddenly decided to scale back this journal; I did indeed have an "incident" in real-life Chicago recently concerning a reader, that left me rather shaken and spooked. Today, the details, and some thoughts on how this is going to affect both my current and future online life. Plus: Finally, the details of my arts center's upcoming wiki, "The CCLaP Guide to Being a Self-Sustaining Artist."

I'm thinking of scaling back this journal. | April 10, 2006
Okay, so because of a growing amount of responsibilites in other areas of my life, I'm indeed thinking about cutting back on the amount of entries written here. Today, the entire story of why. Plus: lots of new details considering "Archimedes," the alternative-reality-game "hyperfiction" project I'm creating this summer. Warning: much nerdiness ahead!

I have some new announcements concerning my arts center. | March 27, 2006
Three major new announcements today concerning my new arts center, the Chicago Center for Literature and Photography. First, our October guest for "The CCLaP Sessions" is official - it's Time Out: Chicago Books Editor Jonathan Messinger; second, a new online document is ready, detailing CCLaP's upcoming online activities; and finally, our first book project is official, a collection of funny, horrific drug memoirs called "Contact High."

The future of the arts - an opposing viewpoint. | March 24, 2006
Well, no suprise here - my declaration on Wednesday, that most artistic non-profits will be dead in the next 30 years, has generated quite a bit of dissent from the non-profit community! Today, an extended essay by my friend Jude Baker, a profesional non-profit executive, arguing the points I made earlier this week.

I've been thinking about Jesus recently. | March 23, 2006
I've been making my way recently through my "read this stuff" box here at home, and in particular a series of lectures by Jewish intellectuals, concerning Christian-Jewish relations. It's had me thinking a lot recently about the subject of Jesus - if he was a real man, what kind of man he might've been, why the Christians and Jews had such a falling-out over him in the first place. Today, my thoughts. Plus: I think I've finally sold my mom on the idea of my arts center, thank God; and, hopefully it'll finally sink in with a bunch of new people today - that I'm holding a reader fundraiser right now. Only $195 to go!

That's right, I said that artistic non-profits are dying. | March 22, 2006
No, you didn't hear me wrong yesterday; I'm predicting the permanent death of almost all artistic non-profits by 20 or 30 years from now. Today, some detailed thoughts on why, and what will replace this structure in the future. Plus: I don't think that newspaper who interviewed me is going to run the article, so I might as well talk about it now; plus good news on the reader fundraiser for a new Intel Mini - $405 now raised! Only $195 to go!

Regarding micropayments and "micro-economies." | March 20, 2006
A comics friend and I recently got on a topic that I've been discussing with others since the 1980s - of "micropayments," or charging just a tiny amount of money for a tiny amount of creative content (one comic strip, for example, or one poem). Today, some thoughts on why so far no one has been able to successfully implement such a thing...well, that is, except for the videogame "Second Life." More on how they're able to do it, and how artistic organizations could mimic the structure in real life if they wanted. Plus: some screenshots from the upcoming new brochure for my own arts center; plus great news to report about the Mini fundraiser - $360 now raised!

A mysterious hero from my past suddenly re-surfaces. | March 16, 2006
This website has always been the cause of a lot of great random emails, and why look at the one I just got yesterday; from novelist Kristin McCloy, author of a book I was really in love with in my early twenties, who just found out recently that I had been in love with the book back then. Today, some thoughts on her book, why it meant as much to me back then as it did, and how my arts center might possibly be able to help her out this coming winter. Plus: Big news with my reader fundraiser for the new Mini - $250 raised in the last two days!

Good Lord - more about Second Life! | March 15, 2006
Good Lord - my fifth day in a row of entries about the alternative-reality videogame "Second Life!" But hey, what can I say - I have yet more things to say about it! Including: an update on my reader fundraiser ($50 raised, $450 to go); more about land ownership, how to build objects, and how this all naturally affects zoning, without there having to be any laws about it; I've started talking with more Linden employees; and more on the serious, academic experiments that can be run within Second Life as well, especially by traditional academic organizations (at a steep price discount too, no less).

Field report: My first weekend in Second Life. | March 13, 2006
Well, it's official; I finally was able to log into the alternative-reality game "Second Life" for the first time on Friday, and ended up spending the whole damn weekend playing (and taking screenshots). Today, part 1 of my ridiculously long report, explaining everything I saw.

Once that ball starts rolling... | February 28, 2006
Well, even more official announcements for CCLaP, this new arts center of mine opening this September; I have our first official show to announce, and someone's donated us a free website as well. Today, some thoughts on why things seem to be coming together so quickly these days, after two years of hardly anything happening at all; and why, by the way, I think those first two years were still necessary. Plus: five simple ways you too can help the Chicago Center for Literature an Photography, sometimes for free, sometimes by donating crap in your basement.

And the name of my new arts center is... | February 27, 2006
Why, it's the Chicago Center for Literature and Photography, in fact (or CCLaP for short), which I can now announce because the website's URL is finally secured. Today, the full explanation of where this name came from, and why it was chosen. Plus: two new 'jasonpettus' tags in the blogosphere, and two new audio comments! Too bad they both recorded them in a way so that I can't share them!; Google, won't you please build the "Google Crossword Helper?;" and a little help is needed regarding whether I'm doing something wrong with iTunes.

No, seriously, the last about my new arts center. | February 9, 2006
No, I mean it, today I will finally finish up the plans for the new "lite" version of my arts center; one that will generate substantially less money, that is, but also be ready to open as soon as this September. Today: How much money that's going to take.

Who is Nikki Patin, and why should you care? | February 8, 2006
Today, part 3 of this week's talk about the new "lite" version of my upcoming arts center; one that will generate significantly less money, that is, but will be open for business as early as this Septmeber. Specifically, more on Nikki Patin, my new Director of Live Events; and more on our Membership and Fellowship programs.

More about my arts center, the "lite" version. | February 7, 2006
Part 2 of the details of the new "lite" version of my upcoming arts center; that is, a version that will generate substantially less revenue, but that will be ready to open as soon as this September. Today, all about our upcoming website.

Introducing my arts center - the "lite" version. | February 6, 2006
I've been getting so much email about it since first casually mentioning it on Friday, that I thought I'd address it head-on today: Yes, it's most likely that a "lite" version of my arts center will be open for business as soon as this September. Today, the first details of why this is.

I was dreaming of the arts center again. | January 20, 2006
I admit it, I drifted off and had a dream again about my arts center: about how cool it'd be if it was open right now, so I could book this interesting series of columnists at the Chicago Tribune. Today, thoughts on why it's so important to sometimes have these dreams, even while maintaining a sense of reality about it all.

Happy 2006! | January 2, 2006
Happy new year! And guess what, I've actually made a New Year's resolution and everything: to finally implement a full and detailed version of the "Getting Things Done" time-management system in my life, which I've been using on a limited basis for about a year now. Today, thoughts on how this is done, and what it's going to mean, not only for my life but for yours. Plus: dreams of 'merry prankster' style computer viruses; and "learning about artists changes artists."

[randommedia]: Field report from the Chicago Small Business Expo, UIC Pavilion | August 12, 2005
An episode of my podcast [randommedia], this one a field report from the Chicago Small Business Expo, being held in the UIC Pavilion.

Yeah, but where are the singing waiters? | August 4, 2005
Today's my 11th anniversary of moving to Chicago. In today's journal, some thoughts about that last decade and a year, and what's coming ahead in my life.

Regarding CRM, SEO, and other MBA BS. | July 18, 2005
Every day that I learn a little more about business, it seems, is another day I learn yet something else useless about business. Today, two good examples of what I'm talking about, as well as one that might not actually be useless after all. Plus: A few thoughts on being a gifted child, and what it means for my future arts center.

Fuck you! I'm a rebel! | July 15, 2005
Today, yet more stories about GALLERIA, the student art gallery and I started and ran in college; specifically, about how we dealt with artist "rebels," both those with legitimate complaints and those deliberately trying to start a fight in order to get more publicity.

More tales of GALLERIA. | July 14, 2005
Today, more stories about GALLERIA, the student art gallery I started and ran in college; specifically, how I managed to get a bunch of rave-attending, acid-dropping, anti-authoritarian art-school students to actually be pretty good office workers. It's not as hard as you might think!

Oh, did I not mention GALLERIA? | July 13, 2005
Yesterday I casually mentioned GALLERIA, a student art gallery I started and ran in college, and was promptly reminded by readers that most people have no idea what I'm talking about. So today, a gentle introduction to that rarest of things in the world - the undergraduate art gallery that actually became an accidental mainstream success.

But what about the artists, Jason? WHAT ABOUT THE ARTISTS? | June 30, 2005
Today, yet more details from the business plan of this new arts center I'm trying to open in Chicago right now; specifically, how I'm planning on keeping a bunch of drunken petulant 27-year-old poets happy with what we do. It's easier than you think!

More on the business issues The Obvious People just don't get. | June 29, 2005
Today, more details of the business plan for this arts center I'm trying to open here in Chicago right now; specifically, how I'm planning on delivering an authentic underground artistic experience to our paying customers, most of whom will not be artists themselves.

I do what I can, and that's all I can do. | June 28, 2005
Today, some updates on how the plan is going for this arts center in Chicago I'm trying to open these days. In a nutshell - some frustrations, some successes, but in general with a slow forward momentum. Plus, a few thoughts on why my business plan is going to succeed, no matter what The Obvious People might think.